i figure it can’t hurt to be a little more personal on this blog, so here we go- (i don’t think i’ll be coming up with my own or tagging people though. i do invite anyone else who wants to participate in this one though. and let me know if you do!)
1. Post the rules. 2. Answer the questions the tagger set for you in their post and make 11 new ones. 3. Tag 11 people and link them to your post. 4. Let them know you’ve tagged them.
1. How old are you? i am 16 going on 25 in september.
2. What is your cultural background/ heritage? korean american. it’s weird because my non-korean friends think i’m so asian, but then my korean friends think i’m so white. i have tendencies towards both.
3. What were you like as a little kid? i think i was super friendly as a little kid. i remember going around and hugging lots of adults. my elementary school principal called them “jena hugs”. i was also very gullible and didn’t have any sense that other people were not as naive as i was. my mom always yelled at me for believing one of my friend’s lies. i also knew as a little kid that i wanted to be a mom and that i also wanted to be doctor. i carried around my water baby a lot of the time or was pushing a stroller and most times when i played with barbies with my younger sister and/or babysitter, one of the barbies would be pregnant and i would deliver the baby.
4. What is one thing in your life today that makes you purely happy?
babies, photography, iphone all wrapped in one (i cheated, sorry.)
5. Post a photo of an outfit that you would use to describe your style ideal fashion-wise, if you only had the one photo to do it:
though this is an illustration and a guy’s outfit, i love it so much. this is what i would choose to wear for an everyday sort of uniform. throw in a skirt too, and i’m set. although, i’ll probably miss dressing up for special occasions…
6. What is your favorite material possession? probably my camera or my iphone.
7. In the big-picture sense, what do you believe in most? I don’t mean for this to solely be a religious question, if anything, I hope you express some ideas about humanity, politics, religion…whatever you feel strongly about. Get metaphysical withit. i believe above all else, in the gospel message of Christ. that is to say that all mankind has turned away from God and this required a sacrifice to be made on our behalf if we were to inherit eternal life in heaven. that sacrifice and righteousness came from a God who is not only just but unconditionally loving in the form of Christ who lived, died, and resurrected for that very purpose. and it is our choice to accept this love into our lives or not. this choice is not about our own actions, but it’s about the state of our heart. it’s about where we put our trust - in ourselves and the world? or in God. i know you didn’t want this to be solely a religious question, but i had to begin with that because that belief shapes everything else for me. this might be long-winded, but i’ll try to keep it coherent.
as people, we’re always changing, whether for better for worse. i think when you’re young, you don’t realize it and that’s why it’s so easy to believe in being with people forever, whether it’s a boyfriend/girlfriend, friends, family. but as you get older, you realize that nothing is set in stone - not for you or for anyone else. i think realizing this freed me from holding onto some relationships with people that i wanted to hold onto so tightly as we transitioned into different phases of our lives, and it also gave me peace when i wasn’t as close with someone with whom i really wanted to get to know. people need different people and experiences to learn at different times, and i think God gives us the right people for each of those places in life. relationships require effort from both ends, but they don’t need to be forced. realizing all of this also helped me realize how special each relationship i have is, especially those that have lasted a long time. you can’t physically be close to everyone you know, but that’s okay. the ultimate relationship that you need to keep close is that between you and God because, like i said, that will affect everything else. i’ve also learned that pain and suffering escapes no one. some people may hide it better than others, but in developing deep relationships with people, you can see that everyone truly has their own battle to fight. i hope that people won’t compare their battles to others but rather mutually help each in the battles. this could be at the same time or at different times in our lives. i think it’s also clear from tumblr that everyone is insecure about themselves at some point in their lives and so i think it’s important to encourage one another. none of us are perfect, but we’re all striving to be better. we all have our own set of gifts and we need to cultivate them not so that we can use them to draw attention to ourselves but to bless others. i don’t really like talking about politics or religion. and that’s because i don’t think that the “rules” set forth in either are really able to change anything. i think real change comes from within, it comes from God. and that happens when we allow ourselves to open up to one another and see each person for who they are. it happens when we love a person for exactly who they are right now but also challenge them to be better because we love them. so i challenge each of you to open yourself up to people. but at the same time that i say that, i’m also going to contradict myself. don’t just open yourself up to anyone and all at once. you need to find people who you can trust with your heart because it’s something that is so, so precious. you need to both protect your heart and give it away.
i could probably write more, but i think i’ll restrain myself here. helgaandbear, i’m not sure if this is the kind of response you were looking for, but i think for right now, that’s what is on my heart.
8. Name all the countries you have been in the world: the us (currently residing in), canada, peru, south korea, thailand, italy, spain
9. Where in the world do you live? You don’t have to be specific, but what is the region, what is the weather like? i currently live in the big city filled with bright lights. i’m going to be moving from here soon to start medical school but i’ll still be fairly close. today’s weather was pretty glorious. not too hot with a nice, cool breeze. the weather in general has been pretty unpredictable though. i’m chalking it all up to the global climate change we humans have induced because of all the chemicals we’ve been producing. bleh. :/
10. If you were on death row at this very moment, what last meal would you ask for? something home-cooked by my mother. the best.
11. What is your favorite book? oh, i don’t like “favorite” questions. i’m really indecisive when it comes to these things. but i can list some that i really like. the diary of anne frank - anne frank the help - kathryn stockett my sister’s keeper - jodi picoult the little prince - antoine de saint-exupery (i’m not finished with this yet, but) the cost of discipleship - dietrich bonhoeffer actually, in all honesty, i feel like i haven’t read a lot in my young adult life. i’ve always meant to read more, but i guess i had other things distract me… i still want to read more.
had a lovely dinner with a high school friend tonight. we ate sushi tacos and some regular rolls of sushi. nom nom nom.
i then proceeded to mingle around staples and barnes & noble.
picked up a new read that i’ve been eying for a while - bonhoeffer: pastor, martyr, prophet, spy by eric metaxas. dietrich bonhoeffer was one of the people who tried to actively stop hitler before the war and the holocaust happened. for some reason, i have an affinity to learning about the holocaust, whether it be through books or movies. i am very much excited to read this.
new mexico in just a little over two weeks! ah! God is good and i reached my fundraising goal last weekend. woot!
i am currently filling out a short questionnaire that helgaandbear tagged me in. there is one question in particular that’s taking me a bit longer to answer, but i promise it’s coming soon!
i hate, hate, hate apartment hunting. but i am doing it because not only am i eager to go to school but also, i just want to get out of my mouse-infested apartment. mickey showed up again this week. =(
i can’t believe i only have a month left in new york =(